Thinking about blogging again, or blogging about thinking again?

Far too long. Far far too long.
After about 45 min of figuring out what account I used to log-in with, resetting my password, figuring out that my google account wasn't actually my gmail account, etc etc etc, I am in.
Why blog again? Why think again? Perhaps because of the impact Casting Crowns' lyrics are having on me these days...
"The Altar And The Door"

Careless, I am reckless
I'm a wrong-way-travelin'-slowly-unraveling shell of a man
Burnt out, I'm so numb now
That the fire's just an ember way down in the corner of my cold, cold heart

Lord, this time I'll make it right, here at the altar I lay my life
Your kingdom come but my will was done, my heart is broken as I...

Cry, like so many times before
But my eyes are dry before I leave the floor, oh Lord
I try but this time, Jesus, how can I be sure I will not lose my follow through
Between the altar and the door

Here at the altar, oh my world so black and white
How could I ever falter
What You've shown me to be right

I'm trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me
Jesus, I'm trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me